Numbers

I used to think the mind games that I play on myself would go away the more weight I lost. I've noticed quite the opposite effect. I'm feeling better about myself now. I look much better. For the first time ever I was tagged in a facebook photo and didn't cringe as soon as I read about it.

However, I'm getting to the point where I'm a bit reluctant to admit to people how much I've lost. Yes, it does show that I'm working hard and have come a far way. But now I'm embarrassed that I'm not smaller than I am having lost 85 lbs. I feel ashamed that I let myself go that far.

Do any of you feel this way? Do you tell people how much weight you've lost? Do people ask you for numbers or just compliment that you're looking well?

Things are still going well as far as eating and exercising. I'm still determined to get this weight off and I know I can do it. I've come so far and if I want to be a smaller size, I have to work for it. I'm not a success story yet, but one day I will be.

Comments

greekwitch said…
I know exactly how you feel. I have lost 31 pounds the last 4 months and i do not even feel like i have taken the first step. There is not that big of a difference. My husband never knew how much i weigh. He could see it but the actual number, nuh-huh. I tell everybody that i have only lost 10 pounds. So one day when the weight is off i will not have to say that i lost 176 pounds(the ultimate goal).
By the way, it feels so much better to write the pounds lost than the kilos lost.
August 5, 2010 at 1:41 AM
Karen@WaistingTime said…
I usually hesitate to share a number since I find it a bit embarrassing. And I have not lost as much as you:) I once asked a woman how much she had lost, thoughtlessly, but curious and because I was so impressed with how she looked. She told me she had lost "a lot" and that she was not saying a number and at first I felt uncomfortable but then I realized that was her right. Now I have a new perspective.

greekwitch's comment was timely for me since just today I posted about my husband asking me how much I weigh everyday because he charts it.
August 5, 2010 at 5:22 AM
Tricia said…
Sometimes my hubby gets a little to loud and proud...telling everyone how I have lost 128 pounds. Of course I'm super proud of myself (and think its sweet he does too....) but darn it sometimes I just want to live in the NOW.
August 5, 2010 at 2:11 PM
Lara said…
I wouldn't be ashamed gosh dang it you lost freakin 85 pounds!!! thats a 12 year old!!!!! well.. .not me when i was twelve but YEAH! yeah you were in a place where you were bigger but look at you YOU HAD TO WORK YOUR ASS OFF LITERALLY!!!! Be proud girl
August 5, 2010 at 8:12 PM
Anonymous said…
I'm not at a point yet that I've lost a huge amount of weight like you. Congratulations btw. But I think I might feel the same way as you. Now that I know this can be a future embarrassment I'm going to make sure I say loud and proud how much weight I've lost. You should too! :) You're doing so great and you deserve to be positive about it.
August 6, 2010 at 2:37 AM
Debbi Does Dinner Healthy said…
I know exactly what you mean! I remember telling people that I lost about 90 lbs., I would see their shocked faces and I knew they were thinking "WOW, I didn't realize you were THAT fat!" I still have like 100 to go so YES, I was that fat. I feel HORRIBLE that I let myself get that bad. I can't believe the extreme denial I was in.

You are doing awesome!! Keep. It. up.
August 6, 2010 at 8:22 PM
Skye-Lynn said…
I feel the same way SherRon! I had not seen a friend of mine in quite a while and she immediately commented on how good I looked and wanted to know how much weight I had lost. I wouldn't tell her. I simply said, "I have no idea. I don't weight myself." and then I immediately changed the subject! ( :

And sorry, but I beg to differ.... You are a success story!!! Just take a look at your before and after pics you posted the other day in the bridesmaid dress! You have come leaps and bounds lady and are looking downright FANTASTIC!!! ( :

P.S. I love your quote from Blair on your sidebar!
August 7, 2010 at 10:07 PM
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